Thank you to everyone who could read my message and find your way around. But above all thank you to those who responded, because it made me feel a little less alone today. I would like to chat or email with you, Sarensi or Emmsagogo, or anyone, but I don’t know how… Are we allowed to post our email addresses here? If not, how do people contact each other one-on-one?
Sarensi, you mentioned the gym, and that’s also something that I really miss… the opportunity to work out every day and get physically so tired that I can’t BE stressed! In fact, I could go to my gym if I wear a mask all the time. I could resort to trying this. My anxiety would surely be less.
Emmsagogo, I could have written every word you posted. All your thoughts and desires to be understood by others… it all rings so true! Oh, other than the creative side. You both are lucky to be talented this way. I am NOT artistically creative at all, but my child has the “artistic genes” that exist in my family. She’s an interaction designer, so I really admire design skills.
I don’t know WHY it is so important for some of us to be truly understood by others, but that’s exactly how I feel. It’s like… I’ve read all these blogs and articles about ADHD findings and copy some of them and like you, I really want to share them with those people who have to deal with me on a regular basis. I want to say: “LOOK! “It’s me!… I’m not just the overeducated and unemployed black sheep of our family! “I fight so hard, and god damn it, I need a good therapist who knows how to prescribe for ADHD.”
Because of ADDitude I KNOW that I am not alone, but being very restricted physically and socially incompetent anyway, it can certainly feel
as I might as well be.
I also have bad thoughts about my life. My county therapist, at the end of each session, would ask me (because they have to ask), “Are you thinking about hurting yourself?” I always wanted to scream,
“No, but I’m sure I don’t want to continue to LIVE my life this way!” Because it really sucks.
Hope you can find a therapist and / or specialist with your husband’s insurance. When January arrives with the registration open, my spouse will add me to his insurance too, with the same hope of finding help for me.
I think I will also be reluctantly joining Facebook after all, in the hopes of being able to join the ADDitude virtual group that I THINK is available through Facebook. Is it worth it. Someone… let me know if we can share any email addresses here or get in touch in some other way. Thank you and stay sane.